Lost in this obliviation

Why do I have to feel like this again?
What should I do? Where should I go?

How do I push these feelings away?
How do I begin to live again?
I can't stand how empty I am,
Missing things I don't own, places I didn't go, answers I don't understand.
How do I start to live again?

When will I start to feel the things that this numbness won't let me to?
Will I ever have a life, a way to know exactly what I'm supposed to do?

Lost, in this obliviation.