segunda-feira, 26 de julho de 2010

If it Makes you Happy...

...It can't be that bad. [If it makes you Happy - Sheryl Crow]

I just have this sentence stuck on my mind on the last four hours and it's mostly because of the continuing part (Then why the hell are you so sad?). Why the hell am I sad?
Well, actually it's not sadness really, it's just a feeling that I'm not where I was supposed to be, or where I belong if there's a difference between this two words.

The thing is, this doesn't fell right. The place is still as comfortable as before and people are still like family and friends, but somehow it seems wrong, out of the place.
Maybe I already feel like I'm somewhere else but the things that where supposed to come with the change are still missing. I don't know, didn't figure out yet, not what I'm feeling, not how to change it. I just feel.

Still makes me happy, but the blue it's definitely here.

Hopefully it'll go away soon...

quinta-feira, 22 de julho de 2010

Every Journey has it's End...

...Here is the end of mine in USA.

For two years I've made myself doubt if I would be able to accomplish what I came here to do. I was.
Two long years, lots of ups and downs.

I saw things I wanted to see ever since I can remember wanting something, met amazing people and, most important, found myself.

I still don't know squad about what I am going to do next, but at least I know how I am going to deal with it. I'm still scared of the future, but now I'm on a place where I can "look fear in the face and say "I Just Don't Care"' as P!nk would sing. I'm more sure of who I am and what I want than ever before. I've got plans, I'm gonna follow them and, I'm not saying I'll be huge, but I'll sure be something big *at least on my own eyes* And I own all of it to these last couple of years and the people involved on it.
Time to go home, unpack once again, have one more first day at work, travel one more time for vacation... None of this it's gonna be for the last time, not until it's time for a new journey to begin...

[To: Mom, aunt and the rest of the "gang", because they believe in me. To host kids, my three little "angels" (Christos, Ritika and Lalith). To the host parents, 'cuz I couldn't ask for better ones (Vinula and Ugandhar). To the new friend who came to save me from loneliness on the second year, Deia. And of course, to the best friend, the greatest one, because if it wasn't for her in my life I would never move my butt and wouldn't be here to start with, Dani. A BIG THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU ALL! ]