"Why?"

""Why do I even bother?" - she wrote once again o the diary. A question she knew nobody would answer, a question she wanted so desperately to go away.

Ever since she remembers caring, it happens like this:
- She starts happy, having fun, enjoying herself.
- Then she fixates her mind on something , and she wants to have that no matter what.
- So she tries harder and harder to be good enough.
- What was supposed to be fun becomes an obsession, something that she needs, she must have.
- Once she thinks she's almost getting it, someone says she doesn't have what it takes to deserve that.
- So she ends up crying like a little girl while writing on the diary "Why do I even bother?"

Hopefully one day things will change."